Friday, October 31, 2008
blog untuk diri sendiri..
I believe in what I've done, and people have rights to critic. they have rights to say what they want to say. the way the deliver it, is up to them..the best thing is, some how i believe, a simple forgiveness if i done a mistake.
chaotic doesn't help, i'll take a sit and relax..chilled..things will get better when I start to reveal the truth..examine..da truth is painful..now i realize how i missed all those moment with them..
im blogging for myself, for me to express my feeling not others..im writing on behalf of myself..it takes a simple thoughts to think that im not good, and I don't have any word to knock people's head..we are just human..
horror gila!
mulanya, semalam jam 7.45pm, wan datang amik aku untuk menyelesaikan beberapa urusan kerja di rumah dwhy..pertama sekali, aku dah duduk kat taman permainan bawah rumah aku, betul-betul lepas maghrib..aku dah rasa x berapa syok..ok, lupakan hal kecil tu..
aku dan semua makan-makan sambil bergelak ketawa..lepas tu kami tonton Kekasihku Seru, citer hantu yang bagi aku gambar dia sangat cantik, dan produksi tu memang gigih menghasilkan drama yang macam ala-ala filem gambarnya, dengan effect yang teliti..good start..aku suka...
tapi, berbalik pada citer aku, kul 1 pagi tadi aku betul2 rasa mengantok, tengok skrin pun dah nampak dua tiga..aku minta tumpang tido, dan lepas je nora tunjukkan tempat aku terus tido..pastu,aku pun bermimpi..perghh..mimpi aku kali ni....bermula..
aku naik kereta dengan seorang pakcik tua yang tetiba nak berhenti beli barang, mulanya aku nak ikut, tapi time aku nak turun kereta, pakcik tu dah berlesup masuk kedai..dari jauh aku nampak ada menatang ape ntah melompat-lompat..mula sekor..lepas tu tambah lagi sekor..ya Allah, rupa memang cm setan pun ada, cam hantu pun ada..takpela kalau nampak dari jauh..lepas tuh bende-bende nie bley main lompat-lompat, hilang..lepas tu,makin lama makin dekat dengan aku..mak aihhh!!aku yg ketakutan nie nak masuk la kereta, macam haremm..tersangkut pula pintu nie, xleh buka..memang babi bila aku nampak bende tu depan mata...depan mata takpe wehh..nie depan muka ko..ala-ala ada 2, 3 inci je jarak muka setan tu dengan muka aku..tak macam mulut aku berbuih-buih baca ayat kursi..
owh..ku sangkakan panas sampai ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengahari..ada lagi episod hantu-hantu ni datang rumah aku..aduh!!rumah kampung aku kat kluang..dengan super effect dari hantu2 ni...suasana memang horror gila..tak macam dah tutup semua pintu, dorang leh relax je main tembus2 dinding..babi!tu yang sampai si midat boleh dengar aku sebut Allahu Akbar...lepas AZAN kat hantu-hantu dan setan mereka meletup dan hilang, nasib baik wehh hilang..kalau tak confirm midat dengar aku nangis plak kot..cit!
bangun2 mereka bergelak sakan kat aku..bila aku cite aku mimpi hantu,
ikutkan banyak lagi mimpi hantu tu..namun dua cerita nie paling aku ingat..kira paling horor la.. nora kata aku x basuh kaki..hantu2 nie mmg standby nak kacau aku nora, sebab sebelum tido tu aku dah basuh kaki...wuu...horror gila!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
rasa nak telan kepala dia..
hard way lesson...=p
but to stop yourself to do such things..it takes a lesson,the hard way lesson..your own experience will be your best teacher..u don't want to hear any advice..you close your eyes and ears for what people telling you..because you want to learn lesson in a hard way..
ask ourselves, is that worth if people can learn it in 4 minutes time, but we learn it in 4 days time..or maybe..in 4 weeks time..??and guys, i believe that the answer will be NOT worth it..
somehow, we tend to learn lesson in a hard way..not because of we are so stubborn and stupid to understand, but only the chemical inside just can't work according to what people had told us..
the chemical works when you got serve..when situation really kicking your ass...you were crying, you were frustrated and deny that you never know those thing can be learn an such an easy way..haha!human are such an ignorant.yes..I am..are you???
setan senyum besar kan???
aku mmg manusia yang cepat terpedaya dengan setan..bisikan dorang nie berpuaka betul..babi!
benci makin menyemarak kat dada aku..sampai sakit dada aku..aku rasa setan ni sume sedang berparti buih dalam bilik aku nie..aku kena cepat-cepat tukar pemikiran aku pasal semua hal sebelum mereka berjaya menakluk jiwa aku..
ok..pandang kiri pandang kanan..aku kena bangun dari tempat tidur nie, bangun dan mandi.sembahyang...x guna punya setan, kalau ada azan yang mampu bunuh mereka..tolonglah ada..gerrrr!!!!wehhh!!!!ko senyumlaaa!!!!mmg dasar setan...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
love at the first sight really exist...?
It can happen to anybody at any place, on any day, but 'maybe' not for me..=p Most people said that, at first you fall in love or get attracted to the physical being of a person, appearance does matter...so,it is considered as a love at the first sight..??
After all that’s all one sees when it’s the case of love at first sight. Something catches your attention, like his smile, his physique or the enchanting eyes.
The mood also plays an important role to create a perfect moment, even I'm in a good mood, i'll only smile to people that I pass by, especially to a cute-cute guy..hehe!smiling doesn't mean im falling in love..somehow, if I'm tired, sad, angry i'll pass by him without glancing back, even if he's a hot guy..hot guy ok??=p so...it just way too possible for me to fall in love at the first sight..
and now....let me think...did i believe love at the first sight...ermmm.....the answer is....NO!love at the first sight DOESN'T exist...=p
warkah buat ayah..
kakak sayangkan ayah dari sejak orang lahir lagi..kakak kagumi ayah sejak orang kecil lagi..kakak cintakan ayah sejak orang dewasa..dan kakak berdoa setiap hari Allah beri masa untuk balas jasa ayah..
kakak akui,kakak anak yang degil, keras kepala, pemalas, pemboros dan suka cakap bohong dengan ayah..tapi kakak tahu, apa pun yang terjadi.kakak tetap sayang ayah..kakak tetap sayang ibu..kalau Allah nak jatuhkan hukuman, kalau Allah nak mengambil ayah atau ibu dari kami,kakak sanggup jadi pengganti...biar semuanya jatuh atas kakak..kakak tak rela tengok ayah dan ibu sakit..kakak x pernah bersedia untuk itu semua...
ayah ampunkan dosa kakak dan adik-adik.kami tahu ayah terasa hati dan apa yang terjadi selama ni, kami buat ayah risau dan menangis..
sesungguhnya air mata ayah itu berharga, betapa kami rasa bersalah membuat ayah menangis..betapa kami rasa sedih melihat ayah yang kami sayangi berkelocak hati risaukan kami...namun,kami anak-anak yang masih belajar..masih belajar bagaimana untuk membahagiakan ayah dan juga ibu..dan setiap doa,kami memohon Allah panjangkan umur ayah dan ibu untuk beri kami masa membahagiakan kamu berdua..
ayah,pengorbanan ayah memberikan segala pelajaran,kasih sayang dan perhatian kepada kami amat dihargai..ibu pengorbanan ibu melahirkan kami juga kami hargai..
ya Allah,ampunkan dosa kami kerana membuatkan kedua ayah dan ibu kami menangis..ampunkan dosa kami kerana membuatkan mereka terasa hati..ampunkan kami...
kakak,
adlin
Monday, October 27, 2008
please don't stop...
please walk and do it continuously..
please smile and do it continuously..
please speak and do it continuously..
please eat and do it continuously..
please read and do it continuously..
please live and do it continuously..
please be happy and do it continuously..
please believe and do it continuously..
please appreciate and do it continuously..
please imagine and do it continuously..
please work and do it continuously..
....what ever thing you are in...please don't stop..
Sunday, October 26, 2008
kajahatan dibalas kejahatan..
jika kau terlepas..seluruh dunia mengampuni kehidupan lampau kau dan Allah memberi pengampunan teragung-Nya..namun kau tetap bersama perasaan bersalah itu selamanya..ia bakal mengiringi perjalanan hidup kau..
...mula sedar kau tak layak menjatuhkan hukuman terhadap pada sesiapa walaupun dia mengheret kau ke lembah yang busuk, yang dalam, yang penuh dengan bangkai-bangkai manusia yang tak mampu keluar darinya..
keluar selagi kau mampu dari lembah itu..kerana sesungguhnya lembah itu akan tertutup dan kau takkan mampu keluar lagi..
bengang je..=p
teringatkan sumbangan2 yang baik dan bernas terhadap aku, aku mula terasa x berapa nak marah dan cuba berfikiran positif..aku dah cuba ok..
tapi bila memikirkan esok aku akan jadi kelam kabut nak gi shooting..aku mula membuat muka ala-ala bosan..ala-ala..."weiii bila nak balik nie..???" dan "panjang lagi ke nak borak niee??" semua mula perasan perubahan air muka di wajah aku..sorryla..aku x pndai berlakon..dan satu soalan cepumas yang ditanya adalah...
"mrah ke??"
aku bertindak mendiamkan, namun dalam hati seraya berkata-kata..
"tak marah,bengang je...." geeerrrrrr!=p
Friday, October 24, 2008
date with 'i love u pertama'
buat pertama kali, selepas 5 bulan berhubung secara perkataan di alam maya, aku akhirnya bertemu dengannya..haha!jumpa je kat kl central depan MONEY CHANGER..dia suruh aku jangan tegur 2 perkara tentang dia..
pertama rambut, sebab dia kata panjang dan x sempat potong..
dan kedua baju..dia kata itu baju terkahir yang dia ada..
haha!aku tergelak sendiri.dalam hati aku nafikan yg tak terasa nak tegur rambut dan baju dia..permulaan yang membosankan bila aku asik kena tegur dan dia memang garang..wuuu..bosan...membebel...dan pembuli gemuk..
tapi bila kami ada misi untuk cari tiket untuk dia balik ke muar..semuanya bertukar menjadi mencabar dan mengujakan..
pertama, aku kena hujan berjalan menuju ke monorail
kedua, bersesak di dalam monorail
ketiga, bersesak di puduraya
keempat, tiket habis
kelima, mama dia merajuk
keenam, kami berjaya mendapatkan tiket
ketujuh, aku ternampak budak nurse meraung menangis, dan sebabnya aku kurang pasti
kelapan, owhh..bateri aku sudah kong..
kesembilan, aku risaukan adik aku arin, selepas melihat budak nurse tu,adik aku pun nurse..wuu
kesepuluh, arin tak angkat call dan aku mula lagi risau..=(
kesebelas, aku dah takde duit syiling lepas call ibu..(
keduabelas, aku kena jalan jauh2 dalam hujan..
ketigabelas, aku masih risau tentang arin sebab x dapat dengar suara dan pastikan dia selamat
keempatbelas, aku mula jalan laju tak ingat
kelimabelas, aku berjaya tukar 3.70 menjadi syiling selepas membeli tiket 1.30 guna 5 ringgit
keenambelas, aku berjaya dengar suara arin,dengan nada marah aku tanya nape x angkat call
ketujuhbelas,aku rasa lega dan memulakan perjalanan ke kl sentral
kelapanbelas,masa tunggu putra aku x tahan nak nangis,risau psl adik aku..wuuu
nota kaki: waktu ini dia pujuk aku..so sweeet...=)
kesembilanbelas,aku sampai di kl sentral
keduapuluh,kami nampak sekumpulan 'hot chick wanna be'
keduapuluhsatu,kami kutuk mereka..haha!=p
keduapuluhdua,kami keluar dan dia hisap rokok
keduapuluhtiga,kami masuk dalam kl sentral dan bersembang
keduapuluhempat, pukul 8.45pm kami menuju ke tempat bas
keduapuluhlima,kami tunggu bas,dia kutuk aku pendek..dia ingat dia tinggi sangat.=p
keduapuluhenam,aku dah mula risau sebab bas x muncul2
keduapuluhtujuh,dia suruh aku tanya pada budak uitm,bas bila sampai
keduapuluhlapan,dia membuat satu pengakuan yang...erk!=p haha!
keduapuluhsembilan,dia suruh aku jangan risau..weh..aku mana risau..muka cool je..wek2!=p
ketigapuluh,kul 9.15pm aku suruh dia gerak ke pudu,kang sia2 je aku berhujan tadi
ketigapuluhsatu, aku salam dan dia gelakkan aku mcam aku budak kecik..ceh!
ketigapuluhdua,aku naik bas kul 9.55pm dan berebut,aku senyum sebab jadi selfish.lantak!=p
ketigapuluhtiga,aku naik bas dan tidur
keduapuluhempat,aku bengang dengan mamat bangla yg asik langgar kaki aku..gerrr!!
ketigapuluhlima,aku sampai pukul 1145pm..gile lama..aku ngantok..
ketigapuluhenam,turun bas dan mula rasa bas U601 dah x wujud waktu2 ni..
ketigapuluhtujuh,aku terus je pergi kat teksi cakap nak pergi seksyen 7
ketigapuluhlapan,pakcik tu cuba nak peras ugut6 ringgit, tapi aku kata 5 ringgit.muktamad!
ketigapuluhsembilan,bersembang dengan budak gelabah naik sama teksi dengan aku..
keempatpuluh,turun je budak gelabah tu aku buat2 bersembang dengan pakcik tu..
ketigapuluhsembilan,pakcik tu berhentikan aku jauh dari blok aku..
nota kaki: b.o.d.o.h punya pakcik teksi..ptot bayar 3 ringgit je..
keempatpuluh, aku charge handphone
keempatpuluhsatu,aku mesej dia "saya dah sampai...macam bodoh punya pakcik..bla..bla..bla...!"
keempatpuluhdua,try baju yang aku tershopping sebelum jumpa dia
keempatpuluhtiga,tulis blog nie..
haha!dalam satu hari..semua bende berlaku dalam hidup aku..disebabkan takde camera dan handphone dia lense rosak tak boleh buka..hahahahaha!kami takde gambar kenangan..owwhh..kesian...=p
date nie..aku akan ingat..sampai bila2..=)
Thursday, October 23, 2008
broadcastingJULY 2008
IN BLAZER
(formal attire)
candid of laughing, and shah doing some silly thing, sliding down the hill..=p
the "posers"..=p
guys..im gonna miss u all..the memory of us will last forever...
me dedicate this song to all my beloved classmate..=)
"Graduation (Friends Forever)"
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
dapat melepaskan diri..
2 hari semalam aku hidup dalam tekanan komik..makan pun x lalu sebelum semuanya selesai..
namun terima kasih buat kyo yang telah mengajak aku untuk main tenis semalam..aku dapat lepaskan diri dari tekanan komik..dari bayang-bayang yang mengejek kehidupan aku selama 4 hari lalu...
"puas hati i dapat main tenis.hilang tension"
itulah luahan hati aku pada kyo..kesian pada kak lin pulak yang masih sangkut dengan tekanan assignment..kak lin ajak aku main petang nie,lepas tuh dia plak yang x boleh,ada hal katanya..owh..kesian...
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
with the BEST film instructor from HOLLYWOOD..=)
we gonna shot a movieeeeee!!!weeee!!!=p
this is what we called
"semangat waja"
sara and i had a good time. But there was a time, i has sleept in the lecture room..dem2!im so tired thinking about the unfinished comic design..but the whole lecture benefit us a lot..insyaAllah...we will shoot a movie after this..stay tuned!!!!!!!!!=p
for those who interested..check out his website..
http://www.webfilmschool.com/
watashi wa tanoshikatta desu!!
hajimamashite
watashi wa Adlin desu
watashi wa ni ju san sai desu
watashi wa tenisu ga jozu desu
umaira, kino watashi wa sentaku o shite, nihon no bishidi o mimashita.Beach boys no bishidi o mimashita
watashi wa NIHON ga suki desu
Nihon de iroirona yumeina tokoro soshite kireina tokoro desu
Watashi wa Tokyo e ikitai desu
Tokyo no machi wa tetemo omoshiroi desu, soshite nigiyaka desu.
Nihon no otoko wa hansamu desu
Tokyo e shigoto o shi ni ikimasu
Tokyo de shigoto o shitai desu kara, watashi wa nihon go no benkyo o naraitai desu
Watashi wa takusan Nihon no hon o yonda kota ga arimasu
Tokyo wa shigoto no yasumi ni Fuji san e ikitai desu
Fuji san ni nobottari, sashin o tottari shimasu
ii desu ne..=)
a terrible week..T_T
an advice for myself, never skip class.But for now,it doesn't really matter at all..im running out of time..20 days left, i'll be out of this school, this environment, this student life..The life that can be manipulated according to what we really want. I'll miss to ride on student life roller coaster..
i'll be working and soon i'll be someone that sacrife her life just to earn 2000 per month. Is not worth it tho..ALLAH please help me to think straight..am i done here..??
I hate drama, but seems i was born to be an actress of my own life. I am thankful for His Blessings..ALLAH i really love you...
somehow i think i had failed life management task.. my performance was bad ..45% out of 100%..dem2!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
preasure.pain.pending
preasure.pain.pending
arghhhh!i wish i can overcome all this thing with the eye wink..gerrr!!!!!!!=(
Friday, October 17, 2008
CHINDIAN look...haha!=p
Monday, October 13, 2008
imagine..IMAGINE..
imagining.....
myself one step ahead..
my imagination will draw a picture of the road..
my mind believe it..and i want my heart to work the same..
and is all about buying a success with a big amount of effort..
Sunday, October 12, 2008
she's up-up in the air..to Bangalore
Friday, October 10, 2008
motivation song..=)
I AM... I SAID
Written by Neil Diamond
L.A.'s fine, the sun shines most the time
And the feeling is 'lay back'
Palm trees grow, and rents are low
But you know I keep thinkin' about
Making my way back
Well I'm New York City born and raised
But nowadays, I'm lost between two shores
L.A.'s fine, but it ain't home
New York's home, but it ain't mine no more
"I am," I said
To no one there
An no one heard at all
Not even the chair
"I am," I cried
"I am," said I
And I am lost, and I can't even say why
Leavin' me lonely still
Did you ever read about a frog who dreamed of bein' a king
And then became one
Well except for the names and a few other changes
I you talk about me, the story's the same one
But I got an emptiness deep inside
And I've tried, but it won't let me go
And I'm not a man who likes to swear
But I never cared for the sound of being alone
"I am," I said
To no one there
An no one heard at all
Not even the chair
"I am," I cried
"I am," said I
And I am lost, and I can't even say why
Leavin' me lonely still
1971 Prophet Music, Inc. (ASCAP)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
cOuntdown...
to do list:
3.0 and above c.g.p.a
ielts
portfolio
funds
and of course..praying for ALLAH blessings....
saya cokelat susu..ngeh!=p
you are Milk Chocolate.milk chocolate.milk chocolate.milk chocolate.milk chocolate.
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago..
yup2..that's sooooo true..=p
aku akan pergi...
mengetahui cita-cita dan apa yang aku impikan akan tercapai..
aku mula tersenyum dan berdoa..
kalau tiada aral,bulan 8 tahun depan..
doa ibu dan ayah sangat aku hargai..tak lupa pada sara dan ayun juga encik zubli yang bagi sokongan moral..hugs!!xoxox