e.G.O

yes im an egoist..

every time the 'feeling' attacks me..
i have to swallow two pills..

which are..

the pretending pills and denying pills to overcome the 'feeling'..
those pills help me to feel better..to feel safe..
really..i need those pills...

perempuan..

Makhluk istimewa yang Tuhan cipta.

Mampu jadi racun dan penawar

Mampu jadi penyeri dan penyeram suasana

Mampu cipta bahagia dan keperitan

Akal perempuan berlawan dengan nafsu-nafsu yang menggila. Sentiasa tidak pernah puas dengan apa yang diperolehi kerana punya perasaan berlawan sesama sendiri. Yang mereka cari adalah kemenangan tanpa memperduli segala yang berlaku disekelilingnya. Ada perempuan yang sedar dan cuba mencari jalan keluar, mencipta formula dan juga membina tembok besar untuk mempertahankan diri. Perempuan cepat belajar dari kesilapan namun masih punya 1002 kesalahan yang akan dilakukan dari arah berlainan. Kadangkala mereka melakukan kesilapan yang sama walau sudah 1001 kali ia terjadi dalam hidupnya. Kerana kadangkala akal mereka tidak mampu menampung segala bebanan kejadian yang mengimpit segala urat saraf dalam otak. Namun mereka dikurnikan deria rasa yang kuat. Kata orang putih ‘instinct’. Perempuan mampu menghidu setiap yang mendatang dan mereka punya cara tersendiri menghadapinya. Ada yang kecundang, kerana itu adat dunia, tak semua akan menang.

owhhh bluberry cheesscake...=(

i wanttttttttttttttt youuuuuu baby!!!!!!!!!

come to mama!wuuuuu!!!=p

p/s this picto took 2 years ago..kesiann..

cari rumah.cari kerja

shah alam..misi bermula..

alamak...semuanya x semudah yang aku sangkakan..ingatkan cari kerja ni senang..haha!well..aku tak mula pun lagi cari kerja..rumah pun satu hal gak..dh jumpa tapi takkan aku nak duk sorang pulak..aduhh..kena cari bilik la gamaknya..

doa ibu ayah menyusuli pencarian rumah dan kerja aku..harap2 la aku cepat dapat.biar lega hati mereka sikit..tapi, tadi kalau ikutkan ayah...dia suruh duduk melaka dulu..aku nak jadi apa kalau duk melaka..??dah gemuk dah niee...wuuuu..berat aku dah mencapai 50 kg..uishh..mantain xpela..kalau naik lagi mungkin aku kena start berenang balik..=p

wuu...nak cari rumah...nak cari kerja....

my little sister..

aku hargai..

thanking everyone who wished me birthday..
thanking everyone who remember me..
thanking everyone who LOVE me and care about me..
-HUGS AND KISSES-
^_^

SUPRISE!!!!!

Their surprise really got me. After they pretend doesn’t cared about my birthday, I went downstairs and start to switch on my laptop. While I was typing up my notes of 23rd birthday, Arin kept bothering me. I pissed and started to ignore her. Then, Adik started screaming and yelling about left on panties on her bed. Adik was accusing me. I pissed off with Adik , and yelled back at her denied the act. Arin started to tell ayah about it. And ayah was mad and asked me to take panties, and I knew they weren’t mine. Ibu also nagged that I’m a lazy girl.yada,yada,yada!

After few minutes of denying it, I was giving up. Gosh!!Everyone started to annoy me on my birthday.. I immediately ran up to get my panties, AND I stopped at stairs when I saw something that wasn’t belongs there. One girl was sitting at the stairs and her hair was covering her face. Shit!wtf!!i was freeze there about 10 second…

Then I heard Adik screamed Happy Birthday!!damn it!!they really got me!the girl is adik’s friend, zila.
(Tak guna punya budak aku potong rambut panjang kau baru tahu!haha!=p)

i went down and saw ibu came up from kitchen and brought a birthday cake..wuu!!a small tears drop out..touched..overwhelmed.. thanx guys!!wuuu!!!

well, i missed to celebrate my birthday with my all beloved friends.but hey, we can postponed it to another day rite??i want my blueberry chezcake man.....i really do...=p